have been sleeping like around 4am the past few days and i have really bad panda eyes already. Now my night's like my day and my day's like my night. :( I'll die if i continue sleeping so late especially when school re-opens man. I've gotta change, otherwise u'll start seeing me going out in the midnight since i'm rarely awake in the morning. Owl? Vampire? I wanna be a healthy person who wakes up early and sleeps early! Insomnia perhaps. :'(

dont feel very well lately. after since i finished 2 bottles of pringles, my throat has been hurting a lot. feels like there's a stone inside waiting to be dug out. haha, hope there wouldn't be fever. See, i sleep late, wake up late, eat junk food, have sore throat, and am so skinny. Cham ah.

father's day celebration at my uncle's house today. fun fun fun. ;) kept playing with Yoyo. Should've brought Phoebe, but mum's afriad they would fight. So.. yeaah. Not really a celebration la, just food and food and more food. K, i shall try to sleep. No one's online and there isn't anything left for me to do! Mapling alone in the night is boring plus i've gotta go Kbox with genn and nicole tomorow..or today. So, cya. Goodnight..or morning. Ok, u getwhatimean.

Often, i hide my feelings. Often, when others tell me of their problems, i treat them like mine and feel the same way as they do. Often, people ask me why i can still be so calm or ''bo-chup'' about certain stuff. Often, knowing that some people put their heart into the things they love and still do not succeed, i lie to make them feel better.

Often, i'd rather let someone who's been really nasty to me to lead me, then to say how i really feel and take the lead instead. However, the biggest flaw in me is that i don't trust people. Though trust is really important to some people, i still can't help but to not trust them, because it leads to dissapointment. Knowing that it'll hurt them, i still do. And the after sourness haunts me.

Often, when i have problems piling up, i still appear to be as the happy and retarded insanely me, and thats cause i don't want to talk about stuff and i'd rather pretend that nothing has happened. Often, i'd use the computer to stop me from thinking of anything. Anything, that's inside. Because if i don't, even the slightest time like waiting for a bus or before going to sleep would make me think of it. Often, a Haha's not a Haha.

Past few days were busy pussy. Had fun working with Nicole and Shimin at Uncle David's place. :) ,I guess I'm not fit to be someone who runs a business cause i tend to get panic when there's customers. Like.. i wouldn't know what to say. Well, but that's just me, "the clumsy bamboo," said my Mum. We had to work till 11pm both days, but i guess it was a fun experience. I've even learned how to use a rice cooker to cook Maggi Mee! (...)

Caught Ghosts of Girlfriend's past on the day Sandra and I went for the lemonade testing job @ standford's. Speaking of that, we got 25 dollars in just 15 minutes! 25 dollars, just to test lemonades and answering survey qns. (^^). Soon after that, i found out i had a blister. :(

Ohmygod yeah, yesterday, Nicole forced me to watch "Drag me to Hell" with her. It was so freaking scary! I could've hugged any person beside me but just not Nicole. Ha, I remember swearing to myself to never ever watch horror/ghost movies anymore but she wanted to watch it so badly and even said she'd protect me! But she got so freaking scared as well and so, being cowards, we got out of the cinema. The ticketing person must've thought we're mad. Met Genevieve after that and we did some crazy stuff at whitesands. Like, taking neoprints with butts around.

Yay, had band just now and we finished learning adcty! I think it's the only song we finished in just 2 lessons lor. Happy but, really tired. Considering the fact that i slept at 3am for continuous 4 nights, and that i'm going to have a busy schedule the next few days.

Tmr, Haveta help Uncle David with some stuffs with Nicole/Sm. Supposed to go swimming/gym with Sandra Sammi Sandy! But, haiya. Friday, to Bradell Heights for S's performance. Saturday, maybe out with Nicholas or swimming. Sunday, work! Ok, it's not really a job but just a lemonade testing thing. Hehe, there's money okay~

I suddenly like blogging a lot. Makes me happy. But yeaaah~ there's always limitations to what i can say. I don't think i can ever type anything real reeeeal. I shall leave it as it is. All i can say is, i don't know how im feeling. Neutral perhaps, and i like being neutral. I like hearing advices from people too. Good..advices. [^^]

Deleted yesterday's post. Anw, went to Bugis with Sandra today. Yea, only the 2 of us as Amanda's been missing in action nowadays. As usual, we went to buy her Jap Mags first. Wah okay... the mags were so expensive. $30+! Its enough to buy the silver bag i've been wanting lor. :( Hahaa. We went many places actually. & we ate a lot. Drummed at the arcade as well. We even sat at the food court for an hour plus reading the mag!

Ok, but that's not the main point of today's post. I just wanna say that i find the life of Jack Russells 可怜. :( Heard that there's many of them in the SPCA just because they're too active and many owners gradually throw them inside and disown them. To me, these people are like terrorists. Killing people, killing lives. No difference. That potato's like that. She kept asking me to give Phoebe away. Whatanidiot, its not even her pet lor.

Hehe, but it doesn't matter anyway. I love phoebe a lot. Last night, i accidentally cut my finger and was screaming for a plaster, and there came phoebe. I felt that she understood why i was shouting and screaming cause she started licking my finger and then she layed on my lap. Isn't that the cutest!?

Wa, i've typed a lot. I should have chose to blog tmr, but I'm afraid I'll forget what i wanna say.