There are too many demands being made on me & I've more than likely learned to handle a sullen retard and still manage to do what has to be done. Yes, & with you visiting the spot, it could be me inviting in someone dear. Yes yes, u saw no wrong. Anw, it was hard bringing messages across today. It has been a subject that weighs heavily on my mind for weeks, or something that i find it very difficult to talk about. However, putting this off will only make matters worse and i hope it'll be cleared of my mind. You're always saying things that i can't possibly guess whether is true or not and that's cause you say one thing and you do another. No one really understands and i can't say it. No, you sitting around and acting like nothing happened is not gonna work. Hope's dashed.Sorry for being such a stand off but its time for me to take rest and swallow my pride. Goodbye. <3

ps:/sandra- get well soon! drink lots of water, i miss you. :D