It totally sucks, when you're feeling really down and there isn't anyone you can speak to.

It totally sucks when no one understands. You're important, but what was with that? Yeah, a word from that shit and you've changed. You know what, i dislike you.

So you're gonna throw everything that we ever had down the drain? Just like that? Over something so petty? Without even bothering to talk to me about it?

Then fine, have it your way.
Since you seem so much happier this way. I respect the fact that you'll want someone to talk to. Someone, like her.
But you didnt had to just leave me hanging. Not only me, But US.

It's eating my heart out.In fact,i don't even wish to even talk to anyone nor go online or update my blog, but of course i'll still laugh and appear normal, cause i'm like that. I don't usually get angry and you know it.

math's a fear btw.
Bye and thanks for your shit.

These are just obstacles,
i think we'll overcome it if we try.

Kay, It's Singapore's birthday today, but i don't feel any exitement. :( I was always excited in previous years but not this year, maybe because i don't get to see the fireworks! Yeeah, but i wouldn't want to even if i could because the thought of the crowd kills.

I wonder if the people who celebrate national day actually celebrate it or they're just doing so for the sake of doing it since other people are doing it too. Hmm, but if we think about it, it's suppose to be something really grand as it's the day we gained independence and when everyone's dream came true. It's sad that we're all neglecting it huh. :(

Hehe, but nvm, went to watch 'UP' with Nicole just now~ Not fantastic but nice ah! Russell's cute. Russell as in, the guy in the movie laaaah. Realised that cartoons can be touching as well, cause i almost cried while Nicole...cried. She was denying though.

Yesah, a proper post for once.
I've forgotten everything else.

By the way, i really need help in chemistry.
Consultation? Tuition? Help! Anyone ~ :(.

i realised there's a lot that i wanna say,
but everytime after typing them out, i tend to delete them away,
i think it's because i'm afriad of people reading them.

met nicholas and co just now & we went to Josh's house.
i was forced! went there to slack and ended up watching Shin-Chan.
but thanks to them, i feel bettttter now.

i will never believe you again.
i was right, you've never meant what you say from the start.
dissapointed.

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hey there,

just wanted to say that i'm fine,
and thanks to those who cared.

I'm fineee! :D
I even had sushis just now at T1.

i feel free.
you wouldn't want to know why,
but i'm not lost anymore, at least that's what i think.
i like the way we are now.

Yea,
sorry for the short updates,
but my blog has always been boring. :B

简单

I was fine initially before i went to Nicole's house ystd, but soon after i had a fever. My temperature's been increasing and decreasing drastically and it's making me wonder if it's H1N1 since im having all symptoms. My parents aren't in Singapore till this evening so i haven't got to see the doctor yet. I feel sick, it has reached 38.1 degree Celsius. ;(

So Nic&I went to pasir ris beach ystd but all we did was slack.
so much for saying that she wanted to study la. One thing for sure is that we're both ultimate failers in taking pictures. Yea, and thanks to her barley, i kept urinating when i reached home. Hope it'll help cure my sore throat though. Haha! I've been eating soupy stuff for both lunch and dinner. When im well, someone pei me eat KFC~! :(

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happy16thbirthdaytotaemin!

Dear blog, I've been feeling really happy these 2 days. Hahahaha, i know it's rare for me to blog when i'm happy but the fact that i'm happy isn't gonna make this post sound happy much. That's because there's someone dear that i'm feeling very disappointed with right now. This person.. i don't know. I can't really define our relationship. Friends/comrades or more than that? It has been a few weeks since we haven't really got to be like how we were. Oh and for your info, it's a girl i'm talking about here. (just to clear any misunderstandings.) Haha,yea. Maybe it was right for me not to trust her from the start, (verbally).

But deep down inside, i did. I was trying to be mean on the surface and see if she'll prove me wrong. Sadly & unfortunately, she hasn't, and i doubt will do so in near future. Talking about not changing hearts and stuff, she has really dissapoint me. To think that i'd believe and put my heart into something for once. You've really made me fall. I guess the one thing i did right was to say i didn't trust you, or it could have been worst.


nah, i'm happy.
it's just another thing that's kinda bothering me.
I had to tell my blog. Bye!

There are too many demands being made on me & I've more than likely learned to handle a sullen retard and still manage to do what has to be done. Yes, & with you visiting the spot, it could be me inviting in someone dear. Yes yes, u saw no wrong. Anw, it was hard bringing messages across today. It has been a subject that weighs heavily on my mind for weeks, or something that i find it very difficult to talk about. However, putting this off will only make matters worse and i hope it'll be cleared of my mind. You're always saying things that i can't possibly guess whether is true or not and that's cause you say one thing and you do another. No one really understands and i can't say it. No, you sitting around and acting like nothing happened is not gonna work. Hope's dashed.Sorry for being such a stand off but its time for me to take rest and swallow my pride. Goodbye. <3

ps:/sandra- get well soon! drink lots of water, i miss you. :D